The Answer to Why I Can’t Just Be Recovered
When our personal lives get complicated our anxiety peaks which enables the eating disorder to take control. It’s also why it’s so tough to reach recovery.
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When our personal lives get complicated our anxiety peaks which enables the eating disorder to take control. It’s also why it’s so tough to reach recovery.
Read More*TRIGGERING WARNING- This video was made to explain to supports what the urge to purge feels like.
You may be familiar with the phrase ‘urge to purge’. You must be thinking a. what is it b. none of it sounds appealing. You’d be right on that, but still, it’s something many individuals struggle with, even into recovery.
Read MoreWhy? Why do you need to bring up the calories in my meal or my drink? Hard no there. Just stop. Let me live my life.
Read MorePlease note- This is fucking hard when you have a body image issue.
For years I avoided all beach trips and bathing suit outings. I look back with such regret. I can’t say I’m strutting around in a tiny bikini but I’m thankfully at a point in recovery
Read MoreThat no matter how recovered you are, the eating disorder can always come back. It’s the strangest experience to explain, because when I fall into a dip, it’s so easy to entirely jump in despite just how strong or far along I am in recovery.
Read MoreIt took everything in my power to not throw my face into that toilet. (Ew, I mean at the hotel now, not on the airplane. I do have some standards…)
Read MoreMy hope for NEDA Awareness Week is for people to see that eating disorders don’t have a specific body type, that recovery isn’t just about eating more food & if we start a conversation about it, we can easily support those around us struggling with an eating disorder.
Read MoreOutside of my covers is a day full of important projects, deadlines, and the insurance debacle. My chest feels tight. My heart pounding. The air in my lungs stiffens. Each inhale feels like there’s a block right in my chest, preventing the air from reaching my lungs.
Read MoreI began returning to my friends, work, and social outings. I was out of treatment- so people just assumed everything was great. I heard a lot of “I’m so glad you’re all better”.
It just makes me chuckle, that’s not how mental health works. It’s not a cold. You don’t pop a pill take a rest and you’re “all set” after a week.
Read MoreThe eating disorder is constantly pushing you to “Be the best at having an eating disorder”….what does that even mean? Be the best at having no life, counting calories and nearly dying? Apparently so.
But anytime I do something pro-recovery, like completing my meal plan or not spending 2+ hours at the gym, the competitive eating disorder voice chirps: “You’re not being good enough at your eating disorder. You need to try harder [at having an eating disorder]”
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