The One I Lean On: Relationships In Recovery

April 18, 2017.Reading time 5 minutes.

For all the men thinking woman are complicated, an eating disorder makes her 50x more complicated. There is absolutely no doubt relationships in recovery are hard. Time and time again I hear my therapist say “I see lots of relationships end during recovery, you just find out who you truly are and realize it doesn’t work […]

The One I Lean On: Thank You For Changing My Life

April 17, 2017.Reading time 11 minutes.

I’ve been asked how my recovery journey started and the answer is simple: Ethan Rogge. This man deserves a noble peace prize for the shit I have dragged him through, and yet almost 3 years later he is still holding my hand. Yes, he is my boyfriend but he is so much more than that. […]

ED 101: How To Help On Bad Days

April 6, 2017.Reading time 9 minutes.

I’ve now learned what life can be like without an eating disorder. It’s precious, it’s beautiful and it’s certainly awakening. But every once in awhile a bad day comes along, and if I’m being honest, it’s been more like a bad month. But I know how much better life is without my eating disorder.

I am: The Power of Positive Self-Talk

March 17, 2017.Reading time 8 minutes.

I am. Such a powerful statement to me. My mantra, really. The first year of recovery was really about food and working out. Learning to eat bread twice a week without taking a box of laxatives or solely going to yoga rather than hitting the gym for 2 hours first. These innate behaviors were […]

Your mind must arrive at your destination before your life does.

March 10, 2017.Reading time 1 minute.

“Your mind must arrive at your destination before your life does.” I read that and I had such a strong connection with it. That is exactly what I am learning. The thoughts you feed yourself today make up who you are in five years. We all have our demons, mine just happens to be […]

#GainingWeightisCool

March 7, 2017.Reading time 6 minutes.

Because really, when I weighed less I was not happy.

I was lonely. I was exhausted. I was depressed. I was hungry.

I’m not crazy, I just have a mental illness.

March 7, 2017.Reading time 5 minutes.

I have a mental illness. I cried when I said it. I thought- what me, no! I just have an eating disorder. But that is a mental illness. I started to feel so ashamed, and even more ashamed that I felt ashamed because fuck the stigma, right? I then realized when I […]

2016: The Year of Gratitude & Transformation

December 31, 2016.Reading time 8 minutes.

So the whole idea of New Year’s Eve has never been that exciting to me. Sure, for the last 8 years 80% of the reason I didn’t go out or complained about going out was because of my eating disorder- but aside from that I just never thought it was a big deal. This year, […]

A Letter to Myself

November 4, 2016.Reading time 5 minutes.

Repost from WEGO Health HAWMC Alright so I have to make up for day 3 as well as day 4. Yupp…3 days in I didn’t last. But oh well, had to listen to my body and I needed rest. So day 3 was to free write about a quote. I love quotes. I have […]

Shout-out to the Online Health Community!

November 1, 2016.Reading time 7 minutes.

REPOST from WEGO Health HAWMC What drives me to write about my health…. Each week I walk into my treatment center and see at least 6 new girls. Each week. There are endless studies on how girls as young as first grade are now worrying about their bodies, feeling fat and holding […]