Falling into the Appeal of the Eating Disorder

That no matter how recovered you are, the eating disorder can always come back. It’s the strangest experience to explain, because when I fall into a dip, it’s so easy to entirely jump in despite just how strong or far along I am in recovery. 

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ED 101: Yoga = Life (for me!)

A year ago, if you were to tell me I’d one day choose yoga over weight lifting I’d laugh in your face and quite honestly tell you to beep off. Years ago I had a therapist tell me I may not like working out, that my eating disorder was the one who liked working out […]

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Your mind must arrive at your destination before your life does.

“Your mind must arrive at your destination before your life does.”   I read that and I had such a strong connection with it. That is exactly what I am learning. The thoughts you feed yourself today make up who you are in five years. We all have our demons, mine just happens to be […]

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I’m not crazy, I just have a mental illness.

I have a mental illness.   I cried when I said it. I thought- what me, no! I just have an eating disorder.   But that is a mental illness.   I started to feel so ashamed, and even more ashamed that I felt ashamed because fuck the stigma, right? I then realized when I […]

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Shout-out to the Online Health Community!

REPOST from WEGO Health HAWMC   What drives me to write about my health….   Each week I walk into my treatment center and see at least 6 new girls. Each week.   There are endless studies on how girls as young as first grade are now worrying about their bodies, feeling fat and holding […]

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People > Stairmaster

I’m starting to finally want to go out, I want to dance, I want to hang out with other people, I want to have fun! But oh shit…I have no friends. Yup, I’m owning it. I’m not even apologizing- because it happens ALL THE TIME to people with eating disorders. Isolation is huge, the body becomes priority […]

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With Breakdowns Come Breakthroughs

It’s terrifying when the eating disorder tries to take back control. Recently, I noticed my face was looking fat. I have never focused on my face, I’ve never really worried about it being fat, and yet as I went to snapchat my friend I became fixated on how round my face was. When I finally […]

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